I've been thinking a lot about weakness lately and what it looks like to "fail well." It sounds like a contradiction but God has been teaching me quite the contrary. Indeed, we can worship and glorify God in our failures. For some reason, I subconsciously have believed for my entire life that I can only glorify God through the things that I am good at. I ace a test- glorify God. Say just the right thing to encourage a friend- glorify God. Excel in my job- glorify God. But I am just now seeing that God can be glorified through my weaknesses too! Because in our weakness His strength is revealed. We can only truly comprehend the peace and grace that comes from our savior when we have done all that we can do and still don't make the grade. In our failures, we are left with Him and Him alone. And He is more than enough.
This quarter I'm taking an econ class that has probably been one of the hardest classes that I have ever taken. I have studies and studied and studied and am still just holding to a qualifying grade by just a string. It has been pretty discouraging to say the least. I think back to times in the past where I've overcome and excelled in a hard class through hard work and determination. It has worked in the past, why isn't it working now? I do not yet know the answer to this question. What I do know, is that anything that I try to find my identity in (yes, even grades), aside from Christ, will ultimately lead to disappointment. I went into my midterm last week with an attitude of worship, knowing that I had studied the best that I could. When we do our best, all we can do is surrender the outcome to God. If we trust him to do the rest, he is glorified. As the quarter draws to an end, I honestly do not have a clue how God is going to work this one out. Whether it ends up that I pass the class with flying colors (by a miracle) or whether I fail and have to retake the course in the fall, I will be at peace knowing that God was gloried through the strength that he gave me to either pass or fail this class.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
Naturally, the sermon by Matt Moore of Cornerstone Simi Valley that I randomly choose to listen to this morning dealt with exactly what I have been thinking about all week! Don't you just love when that happens?! Its what my friend calls a "God hug."